Any Advice?

It’s another dark night
Trapped inside my self
Watching with fright
The fall of my mental health.

I stare inside my mind
Searching for a clue
But there’s nothing I can find
To tell me what to do.

My leg is trembling again
The medication has that affect
The nights bring the worst pain
Night time is time to reflect …

And I have a lot to pull apart
But I just wish I could discover
Where the hell I should start
The child in me wants my mother …

But I know that’s dumb.
I have to be grown up now
I have to pull this mess undone
Just wish I knew how …

So if anyone out there knows
I’d appreciate the advice
Cos lying back watching as this grows
Isn’t all that nice.

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2005

* A rubbish one, but I’m posting it anyway, because I’m bored.