Look this way ©

Look this way and realize
that there is a reson for my scars
if you took a step into my life
you would come even close
to understanding my horrible life

I use to cut a h*e*l*l of a lot more
but if you could look at my words
and take them into meaning
you could actually see the pain
the never ending constant pain

You never feel like your worth it
and you are always on the ground
how about those people that laugh
and told you they were your friends
with thier sneaky grins

You always wonder where you've gone wrong
why ever one is growing madder
and you are still falling
they laugh and tease you
making you feel stupid
but when you come home
you realized why you made those desicions

You take the blade
and sit on your bed
make a note out
as your wrist bled

just as you suspect you wake up in the morning
your wrist are still open
but for a while your pain was gone
only a short while
you try to hide from your "friends"
and they just glare

You try to decide if you should talk
but it never does any good
things are never gonna be right
and you cant help but want to go deeper

You slip into your room
just to try this one more time
things only seem to be worse
as you reopen your arm