Too strong.

I have a feeling inside of me
It makes me sick of myself
Sick to the core, to the inside
Destroying my health

I see the food and I remember
Forcing it up and out
Your mouths moving, chewing
Removes any hunger or doubt

I have a feeling in my innermost place
I am regretting everything
Knowing you’re sitting there
Thinking I’m fake and just laughing

How do I remove this desperate thing?
Cut it out of my thoughts and soul
Burn it for the last time and feel
Will that make it better? Will I then reach my goal?

I’ve tried it and I can never reach enough
There’s a silent blanket blocking me
And there’s only one way to reach far enough
But that way no one seems to agree

I don’t want to hurt anyone
And I know I’m too weak to ever do it
But it’s getting so strong, the feeling inside
I can’t even keep my mask up and hide that I want to quit