I'm sorry I can't let you in

You're standing there
wondering why
How can I cut myself
without wanting to die?

How can I claim
that nothing seems right
How can I say I'm giving up
When I haven't started the fight?

And you wonder why
there's tears in my eyes
Someone stepped
on my great disguise

You want to know
why I'm always rejecting you
Well, I'm sorry, but
this isn't about you!

You see me cry
and what do you do?
Walk away,
like nothing's new

I know you don't care,
For Gods sake!
The tears in my eyes
Are not fake!

They are real
why can't you see?
The only thing missing
...is me...

Somehow I lost myself
on the way
and it seems like these tears
are here to stay

So give me it
it's what I need
it is my kind of heroine,
my very own Speed

I know drugs aren't good
But I really don't care
No matter what,
they'll always be here

And I know you want to know
where my thoughts have been
But you don't understand,
So I'm sorry I can't let you in