Ur GoNe and so am i

Ur gone I've noticed this
gradually
as you floated away
drifted away from me
i hate you love you hate you
i cant seem to make up my mind
because Ur there u just wont go away
as look into Ur eyes
i just don't see what was there b4
was it all just some big lie?
maybe so maybe not
as i try to stand by u
i find myself walking away
in the other direction
instead of tor wards you
I'm dead when Ur gone
I'm dead when Ur here
I'm dead all the time
because u hurt me
killed me
by words as lethal as a sharp knife
to my heart
i still love you
i still hate you
but Ur gone
and so am i
i feel so invisible to this outside world, so invisible
just like vapor
please notice my at least once again
because i still love you
even though i try my hardest not too