How i feel in a nutshell....

Things just ain't the same lately all i feel is pain,like I'm always caught in the rain like slowly going insane,so much shit locked up inside i don't know if i should let it ride an allow it to run my life sometimes i just wanna cry,maybe i should just let it go cuz I'm slowly losing control an everything i feel sometimes if its real i just don't know.But its locked up in my mind barley knowing if I'm alive,but its bringing me down inside feeling just like Ive died an gone to hell but it all feels so much worse,as i look at my life i f**kin feel like Ive been cursed....