When cuttings not enough

What do i do when cuttings not enough?
Everyday living in agony
Some days it seems too tough

What, am i supposed to just take a step back?
Watch my pain bleed away
Every second fading 'til my world turns black

What about the day my life gets out of control?
Pop a few pills and over dose
Knowing police will find me on their nightly patrol

What do i tell these people I "love"?
That they caused me all this pain
A downward spiral caused by just one shove

Today I end this self-inflicted belief
One last slice
I have found my eternal relief

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