At Night

At night I would tried
with my eyes open up wide
staring into the knife
wanting to end my life

Curious of how the pain would feel
will I die or would the cut heal
I wonder if anyone would even care
or even notice that I'm no longer here

Though I was taught to believe
that life is a beauty and there's so much to receive
there's going to be ups n downs, where you learn to stay strong
and we all know that suicidal is wrong

I can no longer seem to hide
all my sorrows and pains inside
where now I can finally confess
all these time you knew me I was depress

Everyday it seem as if I put on a show
always happy..always smile..but what do you know?
when I am here by myself in my room, alone..
my heart collapsed..I cry gallon of tears on my own

Sometime I feel like I am alone in this big world
I feel so lost..like a poor little girl
I just wish I could leave everything behind
no more tears...no more shit on my mind

So tonight as I stare into the knife..
Am I really willing to give up my life..?
maybe I'll be happier in that place
somewhere far away from here..farer then out of space

but why are these tears falling from my face..?
I am not afraid, I just want to be in a better place
my heart is beating so fast
my body are turning cold at last

Finally the time has come for me
when life come to an end
like the way I want it to be
I will remember all those times I spend
the times i shared with you my friend

It's time for me to say "goodbye"
before my soul slowly die
I close my eyes and visualize
the last memories of you guys by my side..