How could you?

From the day we met I knew I liked you.
I never knew you could hurt me so much without your knowing or even your touch.
I slowly grew to know you likely you more and more.
But then you left, walked right out the door.
I still loved you no matter how hard I tried.
Then one day it came to a point that the sound of your voice would tear my heart to shreds.
And after that day I swore I was over you.
But words are so much easier to say then do.
After everything you've put me through I can say I love you.
I cannot say it out loud but only among-st myself.
Because I'm afraid if you hear it you'll run far away.
There is one thing I don't get....
after all of this as I sit here and cry I once thought you were my savior my one only friend.
You kept me from suicide but you didn't know about that did you?
Now because of what you've done I want to die.
My heart is broken into so many pieces that it will take forever and more to fix it.
I can't go through that again.
So this is my poem I'm writing to you I hope you read it.
I'll leave you a letter that explains everything.
That my mind and heart were tearing in 2, and how I died because of you and your ignorance.
But before I go there is something I must confess...
no matter how much I hate you... for some reason... my love for you... is still very much alive.

~_~_~_~This isn't much of a poem but I wrote it a s kind of a suicide letter to my crush/best friend (guy). I've gotten over him sort of but the memory is still there I needed to tell someone about this before I start feeling that way again.PLEASE PLEASE vote and comment on what you think of it~_~_~_~