Living A Life of Lies

One year ago we met,
Your eyes and your smile sent me for a ride
Thats a day I'll never forget
From then on I wanted nothing but to stand by your side

I hate to hold in these feelings in
This feeling stabs at my heart.
I swear loving you should be a sin.
For I knew you & her will never part.

Now my feelings have grown
No one can ever know,
By myself and all alone
All that happens is these feelings grow and grow

Crying myself to sleep night after night has got to end.
For once in my life can't something go right?
No longer can I pretend,
I can't go through one more night

My heart has suffered so very much
To many times I've cried
All I want is just to feel your touch
All the times talking to you I've just lied.

No longer do I want these butterflies.
I can't stand the feelings of floating up above.
You never heard my cries
Or noticed that your the one I love.

So with this blade
And one last call tonight
My life will soon fade
And I'll make everything alright

*_*_*This is dedicated to Mike. I hate loving him b/c I never went out with him. To me hes perfect and just like me. I hope some day this feeling will pass but then again I've been hoping that for about a year now. Whoever may rad this can you please leave me a comment (and vote) on what I should do b/.c by now I just want to kill myself so I can stop all these feelings that are building up inside me. Thanks*_*_*