Losing Love

I stole myself away from you
I broke my own laws, bailed out
I gave into a smaller side
Jealousy took me, I was wrong
I meant to hurt you and I did
Thought shattering your heart would fix the shards of mine
Should I apologise for my actions?
I know I hurt you but it got so bad
I thought I could handle it, take it in my stride
Suppose I bit off more then I could chew, I was choking
And this time I can’t go back, the paint has set
And I’m covered in stains from my last mistake on the canvas
I took in your words and I felt deceived
Love vanished from sight into the night, leaving me alone with you
And although I had you, I didn’t
You never understand how I feel even when I spell it out
I saw everyone but it was you who drew my gaze
Finding my hiding heart I became alive again
I’m reeling in the line, my words are retreating
Pretending I never spoke them but we know I did
You know I love you or I wouldn’t struggle so
Smile myself to sleep but that was many nights ago
When I had the guy I loved with me the hearts black as any crow
They sought each other and fought the other, twisted the arms and kicked the knees
Throwing a mighty sword in to submission
And then we fell upon the sword and our hearts died together, as we lay together
Knowing love found us and we let it go