Kill the Beating Heart

The sky is fading
To a reddish-black
Tears stream down my face
As I wish you were back

I wish I could see you laugh
And feel your contagious joy
I dream of feeling the touch
Of your silky skin, boy

Baby I miss you
And I can’t breathe without you
No matter what they say
My love for you is true

That day four years ago
When you silently dropped my hand
I knew that it was the end
But still you reprimand

I’ll never forget
The breaking silence of your scream
It still seams surreal
Like it was all a dream

But I know in my heart
It was never truly so
But when you left me all alone
I realized I couldn’t let you go

I couldn’t let that worthless girl
Feel the same things I felt
I wouldn’t let her experience
What it felt like to melt

So now your royal blood
Is spilled and mixed with the sky
I made sure to throw it up high
So that you would never really die

I hoped that the stars would accept you
But apparently they will not
Because each day as it rains
I see the blood that I fought

I see it pour out of my vein
As if it were strawberry wine
Sometimes I can’t stand the pain
Of remembering you were mine

How could you do this to me?
See my heart break?
You ask, “How do you live with yourself?”
I do not live without an ache

This ache of mine
Is so impure
That sometimes I feel
So unsure

Baby, you left me
You tore my world apart
So forgive me for returning the favor
Of breaking your numb heart