And i thought i understood
thought i had it figured out
and i knew what had to be done
realizing you were something i could live without
but its so much easier said then done
I'm still hurting so bad inside
and you dint see it at all
these feelings Ive so long had to hide
it kills me inside
when i get your phone call at night
and you ask me if crying
and if every things alright
but i have to lie to you
and say that I'm fine
that i don't cry anymore
and i hide how much i wish you were mine
i don't see a use in fighting myself anymore
because i know I'm never going to win
and i don't see why Ive been holding on for so long
because of my stupidity, people would probably call it a sin
when i told you i was trying
you talked to me gave me power
telling me that wasn't good enough
you told me i had to try harder
you don't even seem to care anymore
i have to wonder, did you ever?
and maybe I'm just being naive
but i thought we were in this together
you said i could trust you always
but suddenly I'm finding reasons to disbelieve
people are saying things that fill my head
i have to wonder what you're trying to achieve
if you were looking to break my heart
or trying to find a way to kill me inside
maybe you were looking for a game to play
well theres something i must confide
you've succeeded in your ways
maybe your intentions were good
but your heart must not have been this like mine
id rewind everything if i could
i hate that i knew what would happen
i knew what was coming out of this all along
and i chose to ignore it making my self believe it
i knew i would end up feeling alone
