I Thought

When I called out for help
When I waited for you to defend me
When I was helpless and alone
I thought you would protect me

When I cried out in pain
When I wanted you to comfort me
When I was hopeless and alone
I thought you would soothe my pain

When I broadcasted my thoughts
When I wished you would stand by my side
When I was unsteady and alone
I thought you would support me

But all those times,
You were somewhere else--
You weren't beside me;
You were in your own world
You didn't give me a thought--
Even when I really needed one...
And so I was left there
to be attacked, ravaged, assaulted.
And you said you were sorry...
But you weren't,
Not on the inside.
So it happened again
And again--
You still said it,
But by then I knew
that you didn't mean it...
Not one little bit,
And I didn't trust you:
Never again would I let that happen
Not to me,
Not to me
Not again
And so I went inside myself,
and I never came out
My heart, soul, and mind
are still in there,
in the place no one sees,
in the place no one can touch,
in the place no one can hurt--
and that's where they’ll stay
Forever.

This was fun poem to write, and part of it really expresses my feelings, but part of it doesn't. Kinda weird... up to you to figure out which parts are real and which aren't.