Do you love me too???

I'm too hopeful
i love you though i don't know why
i feel my body tingling
is that you looking at me?
i look your way though Ur
just looking at someone else
laughing at someone else's joke
i look around me
why did i feel that?
i sigh
i feel it again but i ignore it
but it pulls me too much and i look
yes you were staring
but you quickly turn away
i laugh
he's probably just looking at some
hot girl behind me
i have that lonely depressed stare
on my face
i stare out the window and look at
the snow drifts quietly blowing on the walls
i hear you talking
and i listen
i always listen, hang on to every word you say
i remember every syllable
every thing you've ever said to me
are the I love yous fake?
were you just feeling flirty those days
or did you mean it?
I'm sitting alone thinking all this through in my troubled mind
like you'd ever love me back
i walk around
and you watch me
and it makes me nervous
but you just resume talking
and i return to my seat
my face showing all kinds of questions, hoping you'll read them
i love you,
but do you love me?
i think i already know the answer
i just don't want to know it
because it might just hurt me more
than not knowing
love doesn't work out for me
I'm too hopeful things will work out
but i need to move on
maybe it's easier not receiving anything
because then you can leave easier