Suicide...please

My head is pounding
And my throat is sore
I’ve been crying so hard
I can not take this anymore

My leg is trembling, a side affect
From the medication they gave me
It’s no use trying to explain
That nothing but death can save me

With no where to go
And no where to hide
I hold myself, shaking
Dreaming of suicide

A picture of the two of us I hold
And a blade clenched between my fingers
Trying desperately to make it stop
But the agony still lingers

I am alone in this world
My scars scream out my despair
My body starved and bleeding
The blood pouring everywhere

And I’m wondering
How the hell I can live
I can not take this
I just want it over with

I turn my arm over
I’ve studied and researched with care
So I know how to do it right
The blade hovers above my skin, so white and fair

Just one more slice
Suicide now, not self harm
The blade goes swiftly across
The blood trails down my arm

I close my eyes
Waiting to fade to black
I am fully aware that once I do,
I won’t ever be coming back.