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The past week has been different
It's been strange
The depression I thought I had conquered
Proved me wrong again
Cuts once again mark my wrists
Hate fills my mind
You all don't understand
Once again I feel lost and alone
I don't eat much anymore
Am I starving myself again
I thought I had really changed
Thought I had moved on from that stage of my life
But I guess it's not ready to release me from it's grasp
I'm still under it's spell
Feelings of pain and hurt
Why do I deserve this
You don't understand how I am really feeling
You don't know what it's like to be me
You call me fat
I know you're joking
But my mind tells me it's true
My mind makes me believe
So I stop eating
I wish people would stop putting me down
Can't you say something nice
Not that I'd ever believe you
Cause I'm the same old me
The girl trying to escape
The one with lots to live for
But nothing to lose if she left
The angel she's called Trying to be their rock
The one who's stummbled and fallen
The girl who keeps on falling