Starring At Myself

I never wanted to be like you,
I didn’t want my life to consist
Of slit wrist and days of feeling empty.
But look what you’ve done-
It’s worse than you could ever think,
I’m just like you.

And for you, I’ll stop complaining-
I can’t say it’s your fault-
Because, darling, it’s all mine.

It’s such a fake conspiracy-
And yet the look in your eyes deceives me.
I guess I’m known for being easy.

So I’d have to admit-
I’d still do anything you’d say,
And call me what you will,
It’s not going to change my one and only good day.

The past is engraved deeply within my wrist-
It’s so easy to look at me
And deprave me for everything I’m worth,
And I won’t hold this against you,
Believe everything you hear-
About the girl who drowned in her own misery.

You used to count on me-
Tell me your feelings of obsolete,
I’d be there for you in a heartbeat-
Believe me I still would-
But you’ve crossed the line,
Everything that I felt was once fine,
You took into your own hands
And crushed,
But you’re oh-so good,
And I can’t let go,
Grip is my best friend.