Abandonment

Abandonment is all I feel
Everyone just wants something from me

If it is not my heart
It’s my money they want
If it is not my friendship
It’s the rides I give them
If it is not the smiles I give
It’s the feelings they take

Abandonment is all I feel
Everyone wants a piece of me

If it is not the comfort I give
It’s the feeling of someone caring
If is not the laughs I give
It’s the fact that you have me
If it is not the love I give
It’s the fact I’ll always be there

Yet when the time comes that I need you
No one is ever there when I fall
The things people have said to me
To make the pain go away
Was just something “to” say
They never meant a single word
Just wanted me to shut-up
And to stop “complaining”

One said that I just needed to leave here
Get away from the small city I live on
That the men here are just boys
Said I should get away and go to a big city
Said I had so much more to live for
That there is a life outside these walls
Yet now if I were to cry to her
She would turn her back and just say
“That’s sad to hear I’m sorry”

Abandonment is all I feel

One said I’d be your friend forever
Always making me feel better
Cheering me up when I felt down
Making jokes even when they were stupid
But now if I asked for help
He would mention another lie of me
Saying that I’m an evil person
“You’re so two-face”
The time I gave him I can never get back

Everyone just reaches for me
And I always reach for them
Until they let me go
When I need them the most
The friends I have are never there
Just a distant memory
Of pain I had to feel for them
To make them smile
And make their pain go away

Abandonment is all I know
And is all I feel