Numb

I'm so numb
Can't feel hot nor cold
Stub my toe and no swearings involved
Slash my wrists
I can see the blood
But no pain can be felt
An emptiness within
Once again I let you win
Tears pour down my cheeks
Can't remember my life not being so meek and horrible
Depression has taken over
Not that anyone can tell
If only you would call
Maybe I would have stopped before I began
But you can't save me now
No no one can
Remember how promised no more
I would stop trying to end this all
Did you think I would really stop
Did you really trust me
yeah, I lied
I guess I'm a failure
I'm sorry you're not to blame
It's me
I live inside m head
Full of so many memories I dread
You wonder where I am when I seem so distant
Well I guess now you know
Locked inside my head
I hold myself there like some kind of curse
It's like there's two of me
One who wants to be free
While another feeds of my depression
It slowly grows stronger
Overpowering me
I guess none of that is real
I'm just me, lost and alone