Life

I hate myself I really do
I hate everything about me
I’m fat I never do good work
People always doubt me

I want to die I really do
I hate this awful life
My fake smile plastered on my face
In the loos I take my knife

Every lunchtime, Every break
I cut right to the vein
Wanting to die all the time
Escaping my pain

Pretending that I’m so happy
When really I am not
I hate being alive I don’t want to be
I hate everything I’ve got

I want to die and get away
I hate my bloody body
I have a binge eating disorder
Not like everybody

I hate myself I wish I was dead
I hate being alive
I am no longer motivated
I see nothing to strive

I am a useless human being
The worst ever creation
Whats the point of being alive
I am a mutilation

Compulsive overeating well
That’s what the doctor said
I’m the fattest person in the school
I might as well be dead

I hide myself behind my smile
Behind my fake cold laugh
I hate myself for cutting and
I’ve torn myself apart

Clawing at my layers of fat
Trying to pull them away
Leaving gashes in my skin
There is no other way

Smashing up my design work
Another useless failure
I can’t cope with all this hate
I can go no longer