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Where are all the tears?
I should be crying,
Promises mean nothing anymore.
I should be screaming,
Why am i so calm?
Each one gets easier and easier,
my hand is shaking.
I'm crying inside, but nothing will come out,
cried so much, my tears have all dried up.
Life's not fair, why does it have to be so hard?
Just broke 5 promises, 12 times..
Concentrating hard, I want it to be perfect.
Get rid of the evidence, hide it away,
until next time, my next bad day.
This time it's a secret, no one will know,
No explaining, no one to show.
This time it's for me,
I'd rather hurt outside than in,
I dont know why for sure,
It's the closest I can get
Because those words keep echoing,
Because i keep feeling guilt/