Watching the rain

Standing still
watching the rain
feeling my arm
and its self-inflicted pain

hearing the raindrops
hitting the glass
thinking of nothing
but hoping i crash

i open the window
on the 7th floor
i put out my hand
and lean out a bit more

feeling the water
touching my skin
loving the rain
washing away my sins

stretching out my hand
letting rain soak my hair
starching out far
just not giving a care

i put out my arm
now covered in blood
hoping the rain
will make it disappear

with my hair soaking wet
and my sins washed away
the blood all gone
there's no need for delay

there's my evil Satan brother
and my moms who don't give
a dad who doesn't love
there's no need to live

it all led to cutting
under all this depression
i tried and i cried
and thats my confession

they put me here
where it's not right
they think I'm crazy
oh, what a sight

this place is better
than with them all
I'll have to admit
and that I'm gonna fall

I'm leaning far out
getting ready to jump
hating the world
and in my throat i feel a lump

i walk----
i feel the air
on my face
only something you'd never dare

time is slow
its going forever
the rain comes with me
and forget? never