Reminder

When I look at my arms, I remember how it felt
To have my heart shattered and my hopes start to melt

Every cut was for someone who hurt me
I wanted to show them, wanted them to see

I wanted them to be hurt because of what I did
But then I thought to myself, "I'm still just a kid"

My mind couldn't understand the pain inside
Every time I was disappointed that I hadn't died

Crying didn't take the pain away so I wanted something more
The first time it was terrifying to watch the blood pour

The second I was consumed in making it all go away
I didn't feel the cuts until the very next day

I continued to cut away all that I didn't wanna feel
Because I didn't think it was that big of a deal

I wasn't doing it to die, I only did it to replace
I didn't wanna focus on the inside, so I tried to erase

My friends started to worry, when I shut them out
If I was ever going to be OK, they were starting to doubt

My mom stepped in, like she always had
I am getting better now and for her I am glad