Torn

I'm so confused with these pains stabbing my heart
Tired of the same arguments Running away before the fights start
Naive to show that i am any strong Weak with tears that scream
These smiles and flirtation is only what i use to bare I'm not who i seem
I'm everything everyone doesn't want me to be
Hating me because i seem to not care But it's my hidden secrets i know they cant see

My heart is bleeding My soul screaming
I want a grip i cant slip from Scared of reality My only freedom dreaming

I'm breaking the pieces at my feet As the unshed tears stain my cheeks
My forgotten breath held inside Insanely sad No one truly knows How hard I've been faking I'm not weak
Hope tore my dreams Faith broke my soul
I blocked the world from my vision Despairingly paying the tole

These unheard screams choke my throat I can no longer breathe
Now i have to wait for my heart to stop beating Because in reality...i have yet my body to leave