Maybe!

Pills and pills my friends say I'm addicted
I'm just looking for a way to get rid of the pain
but of a crime I get convicted
so the pain just continues to run through my veins

no i cant say I know what I'm doing but it makes me feel so helpless
that I cant let go I just continue to want to miss
I just deal with the pain deal with the hurt
till I'm where I'm at wanting to go die wanting to be baryed deep in the dirt

everyone says they know says they understand
but in actually they don't know a damn
they all say that they know me all say I'll be fine
but my real thoughts and feelings I just keep inside

maybe I'm not meant to be happy maybe I'm not meant to care
maybe I'm meant to walk around with my middle finger up in the air
so I'm just going to give up
maybe then I will have better luck