My Reality

I waste away in my misery
Of all the loneliness around
Don’t be fooled by the smile
My pain is quite profound

Never have I spoken my mind
I don’t know if I ever will
I know I like to be happy
But the pain is there still

Surely I’m never alone
Or have I thought that before?
Because if I have I must have told myself
That a thousand times before.

Within my mind I hurt so deep
The pain in my heart resides
So no matter what you may say
The hurt dominates my insides

So many times I’ve hurt someone
I once thought I loved him
But once all broke out I came to realize
That my chances were slim

I guess I never thought I could
Achieve this much before
But now that I have I now know
I don’t want this anymore

I don’t want to be loved because of my looks
Or the way my hair may gleam
I don’t want to despised
Because of the way I dream

These are my aspirations
Never yours to break
So why did you take the liberty
Of telling me I’m a fake?

I’m hurt by this because I know
I know that this is true
Maybe I’m nothing more than a hopeful poet
Who’s hurting from the pain I go through.

-So true. I don't know whether to take Pia's comment as a hurtful, but the way I perceived it was truly insulting to my intentions on this site.-