Please Help

Please help
anyone who gets this.

i have lost my faith
and I can't seem to
find it.

It was all that was
holding me up.

I hate God more than
anything. But i also
love him.

Everything hurts,
i am so confused.

He took my dad,
he took what were my friends,
he took my life
and expected me to be
happy.

I am usually.
I love my new life,
my new true friends,
my mom.

But what i would give to get
back my dad,
and my destoryed friendships.

No one understands the pain,
no one gets it.

They are all wrong,
I am hurt, but i am
not looking for pity,
I am looking for help.

Please help