Tonight

No matter how hard i try
its never good enough for anyone
.....but why?

i just want to know im alive for a reason
but no one told me i am
so should i just die?

why is it so hard to say i love you?
i guess thats what i really want to hear
because the thought is keeping me alive

im not scared of dieing
really im not
but there is something i am scared of

not that ill never be alive
not that ill kill myself
but the fact that no one will care

why cant someone just say it?
why cant someone tell me they care
that they love me

that they will make me smile
a non-fake smile
that i barely make

just say it
before i die
tonight