Longing to be your child

by Child of God   Mar 22, 2005


Apples carrots healthy things
That's all you ever see me eat
Wondering why i look as i do
When you thought i eat better than you

But late at night when tears start falling
The food I'm hiding wont stop calling
She was always first to suggest a diet
She thought I'd be fine because I'd hide it

Anorexia was the only thing to make her love me
Because I couldn't be loved by her if i were ugly
Weeks without food so i could be her child
Sickness grew as health lowered from mild

Skinniest I've ever been
,But now I'm fat again
Nobody loves an ugly girl
I'm given no chance to make through this world

So mom I ask you hear my last scream
I'm taking my life so you'll be pleased

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  • 19 years ago

    by Heather M Craig

    Awe, Rachel, girl this is so so sad, almost wanted to cry my eyes out. I'mma big girl too and my mom and dad are hard on me as well but i've never been anorexic or bulimic (tried but failed) ... i dont know your home life or you as a person but girl i jus wanna say, you're beautiful thick or thin, tall or short, white or black and beauty still reigns in your heart. but if thats you in the pic, you're beautiful physically and personally. don't let anyone in this world bring a survior down! :) I know you'll stand strong!

    With love,
    Heather
    ps 5

    pss thank you for the comments....and yes, i am so happy for the once in my life hence the disappearance of sad poems and into the spotlight of love hehe, Shauns my baby and i love him with everything in me as he does for me!

    STAY STRONG RACH, YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

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