I just don't know

I want to reach out to you
I want to grab your hand
I want you to get me out
Lead me away from this land
But I'm too scared to tell you
What's been going on
It's something so horrible,
Something so wrong
I love you so much
And I just don't want you to see
Don't want you to know
What this depression has done to me
Everything is now so twisted
It's far worse than before
I'm still your little sister
But you don't know me anymore
I really do want to tell you
I'm oh so scared
But it hurts to tell you
Because I know that you care
Your so special to me
And I don't want to disappoint you
I think I should...
I just don't know what to do