A Hovering Pain

My pain is like a cloud,
floats above my head,
I'm not even aloud,
to be dead.

i wish i could end this,
All right now,
i just miss,
knowing how.

i used to know answers,
a no brainer,
now i suffer,
life keeps getting plainer.

as i sit here,
and write,
i live in fear,
of the light.

to shine in my eyes,
making me glow,
gosh time moves by slow.

when will i be dead,
and how?
this makes me dread,
oh god wow.

Hear my screams,
just for tonight,
you'll be in my dreams,
after the light.

plz vote and after the light means after i am dead.