My fate

I've pushed everyone away
I'm all alone
I can't fight this anymore
I'm on my own

I can't take not knowing
How to end it here
Oh god not again
I've shed another tear

Depression is what haunts me
You all tell me its fake
On this spring day
Its my life i plan to take

Who cares?
Not me, and not you
Not any of those doctors
No they didn't have a clue

They thought i was happy
But i was hidding under a mask
And you failed to make me happy
I thought that was your task?

But as i sit here
Slashing and cutting away
I decide to make this horrible
I won't just sit and die where i lay

I write all over the walls
In my own blood
Blood thats pouring
Coming down in a flood

Suddenly things get hazy
I fall down to the floor
My helpless heart and soul
Apart i had tore

As i lay there helpless
Drowning is a blood puddle
You walk in, the look
The one of pure befuddle

I choke on my blood
As you stare and scream
You say over and over
"Oh God please let this be a dream"

The ambulance comes
But its way to late
My suicide
My fate