Broken Generation

That was really good lov it, xoxo Rach

Hey, Nick, I'm crying really, really hard right now. I'm sure you know that my Nana is the only one I felt I ever had, right? Well if you didnt, I just told you. Well in the discussion board, she insulted me in front of everyone and told me I should be ashamed of myself and that I'm disgraceful. *tear* I didn't do anything, but if you want to read it, just go to the top where it says discussion, click on that, scrolll down, click on Sadness and Depression and when you see a whole bunch of topics, click on the one that says MY Mom Hates Me. My Nana's sn is AngelsNana.

I can't believe this!! *tear*

Mel, I completely agree.. I'm sorry though!!

Nick, I admire your ability to trust people. I hate it that I'm the way I am. I hate myself for that, but I'm protecting myself that way. I don't think you understand, Nick, I have secrets, if you couldn't tell by my poems, that will literally have me killed if they get out! I was stupid to give someone that power and that person just happens to be one of those girls who abandoned me when I first started to cut. I'm living in fear every day that if i tick her off once more, she'll tell. I know she hates me, Nick, she told me she wanted me to die a horrible, bloody, death. Call me crazy, but that does affect my love life.

I never know if I can trust someone despite how sweet to me they are off the bat. I never know if they will turn on me. All I want, is to have someone, girl or guy, to talk to when I need one. For the rest of my life, who won't judge me by what I do or what I did, or my history or even what i was raised around. Today, people seem to be doing that left and right. I love you too Nick, I just can't fall. If I fall, I'll blow my composure, and that's the most important thing to me. If my heart bursts one more time, I'll have a mental breakdown. You'll never know how strong I really have to be, and how strong I am right now, not very. You're so sweet to try to be there for me, but I need a shoulder to cry on when I can't take it. No one can do that anymore because their reputation is at stake. :*-(.

hey sorry pple i g2g, peace out god bless and keep the faith. i hope you find love Sierra. i love you lots aite.

Nick

true i have been known to over trust pple. but everyone has a weakness. but i would rather trust every person in this world then trust no one. because i want someone who can trust me also. love has to do a lot with trust. you have to be honest to the person you love. and that person must trust in you no matter what. i really hope that you find love some day. even against your wish to die alone. i hope a guy will love you so much. always remember that a guy alreay does ok. i luv u lots aite. i have faith in you my friend. you have no idea. i know you are strong, and i hope you only get stonger, but you dont have to be strong in front of every person. let love come to you and let it come over your heart. i didnt leave you when you told me you cut. im still here. i want to be your friend. i want to love you. i want to help.