Lonely

So lonely..
yet no one can see me
I'm showing but no one See's me
I'm screaming my lungs out but still..no one hears me
i need some attention
I'm like in my own dimension
where only i exist
although i have many friends..
that say they will be there until the end
although i have lots of family,but still
no one understands
how I'm feeling inside,
when was i ever happy?
my struggles i face alone
when i tumble
i have to get back up on my own
no...i don't get a helping hand,because no one See's me whenever i stumble,
they think my life's so perfect and care-free,but hey! did they notice I'm crying..wishing i was dieing..
yet all of this i hide underneath my smile,everyday lying that I'm OK..
but really my life's a mess
although i try so hard to make it look like i have everything together,everything under control
but really its falling apart
suicide was always an option
but i know better than that ..
still today i have to pretend..
although i know everywhere i go is a dead end..