I don't know what to call this yet....

All I want to do is feel
But I can’t deal
All I can do is kneel
My head is spinning it feels like a wheel
But it’s not real
I want to heal
I want to feel

Or

I don't want to die
I just want to cry
But I’m too dry
I just want to fly
I don't know why
But I don't even try
All I can do is sigh
If I said I was happy it would be a lie
*This what I could relate to and use to be like before… a lot of things*