Over Coming Thoughts©

If I told you how I really felt
would you look at me the same
I can't take the chance
of getting turned in again

I wish I could tell you
how deep this pain is
the terrible truth
my story untold

we went out about 3 months
and thought it went great
but he only had thoughts
about taking a break

he came clean with all his friends
and his friends couldn't tell
he wanted them to be silent
the truth was never said

all I ever did was weep into the night
trying to forget the deepening pain
I just couldn't stand it anymore
I was losing this fight

I could feel the pressure of the blade
pressed harshly against my skin
how could he lie to me
he looked me in the eye

I couldn't stand it anymore
I need to take a break
I told him on our three month
our relationship had to end

I just began to weep
and couldn't keep it in
a shiny blade my only hope
of keeping the pain in

I can't tell anyone of this
no one could ever understand
you probably think of me
as some kind of freak

if you only knew the pain
the pain truly locked within
you'd understand why I risk my life
and use my friendly blade