My mind intertwined

Help me live another day
with this perfect life
the life full or despair and remorse
in the this world of bliss I live all alone for ever now
alone from the deceiving eyes
alone from the hate passed on
life has more than raised me to live alone
the movie of my fondest memory
plays over and over again in my mind
with that ever calming music
only to change quickly to the days
of hate I face everyday
loser you might say
from that single word
I sit here staring out my window
looking for the perfect life
that people say I have
my insides are intertwined
with my mind