Just anothe rainy day

As I watched her from a distance
it all became clear to me
she had everyone fooled, even me
she held so much pain inside it was hard to believe that she still kept a smile on her face
pretending everything was fine

every night she went home and hurt herself...the cuts getting deeper and the burns getting worse
crying so many tears, hiding away all her pain
not a soul knew of her love for the crimson...no one knew how close she kept that gun

I had failed to do my job, her guardian angel I was...but I couldn't help her , she had to help herself
I sat watching her slowing kill herself every night ....what if I wonder???

cutting, burning, scarring, hurting, dying, lying, fighting, fading away
she was losing everything, even herself
darkness had consumed her
she had grown so cold and broken inside, was this really her?

Everyday it rain and rain, as if it would never stop, I could help but cry..it was all I could do
she didn't know what she was doing to me or the one's that love her

she was falling apart

It was just another rainy day
when it happened
she was lying on her bedroom floor
with the gun in her hand
lying in a puddle of hate

the rain began to pour and pour
this angel failed to do her job
now she sobs