This Feeling of Mine

Shh.
listen to the whisper.
you can hear it.
because nobody is here.

theres nobody here to shout.
to laugh,
to speak of nothing,
to ease this pain
of being alone.
of being unwanted.
of being left behind.

you see, their all out there.
with each other.
and your still here.
sitting,
hunched against the wall.
trying to ignore
the ringing in your ears.

the ringing of their laughter
as they're out being with each other.

you wonder.
what must it be like...
to have somebody who wants to be with you
all the time...
or at all...?

what would you do?
how would you feel?
how could it be?

.....is it possible?

no.
no my dear, I'm afraid it is not.
you see, nobody wants you.
they already have each other.
theres no space left for you to fill.
theres no lonely person out there looking for you.
they all told you lies.
they know the truth.
that your unwanted.
they didn't want you to start crying all over them.

but your content aren't you?
you've been OK this long.
right?

just try to wipe the tears.
try to purge your dreams of the demons.
remember to fantasize of that person.
that one nonexistent person...
who may someday come, and wipe your tears,
and purge your dreams.
and make you feel wanted.