I'll Understand If You Leave

I was never out to find
Someway to make you sadder
You were in an unstable state of mind
While my heart was torn in tatters

I don't know what was wrong with me
I lost all I had been
I was tearing apart with worry
That you could be suicidal again

I didn't mean to hurt you
I handled your pain the wrong way
And I was hurting myself, too
There is nothing I can say

I did everything wrong
And now I hang my head in shame
I've been stupid all along
Why did I play in this game?

I don't think you believe me that I meant no harm
But I assure you, I did not
Your last words to me left alarm
It was reassurance that I sought

I cannot express in words
How terrible I feel
To stay with me you'd be absurd
My actions were unreal

I'll understand if you leave
I can't believe what I've done
But I still love you, I perceive
I hope to God you forgive me, hon

I might just leave you be
So I don't cause more pain
I pray that you are happy
And that you will love me again.