Why do I bother asking you for anything when I already know the answer? It has been like this for as far back as I can remember… you have to work and don’t have time to come to any of my petty little things… soccer games, concerts, and school activities were all too much for you to handle… I’m sorry I even thought of asking you to be a part of my life… yet when I don’t ask you, you complain and wonder why … did you ever think it could be because I knew you would say no? Or because I didn’t want to have to deal with the disappointment of it? Or maybe the fact that my little heart couldn’t bare the weight of your problems…. I don’t know what I am going to do mom… I do know I am not going to ask anything of you anymore… I surely don’t have time to deal with this feeling of worthlessness and hurt… I am moving on so if you want to be a part of anything in my life… you wont hear it from me… don’t ask how, or why, I am doing this.. think about it…and if you cant figure it out… maybe you should look into the mirror and think harder… I love you so much don’t get me wrong… but I cant handle the broken promises anymore… I know you have a life outside of me… but for once I wish you would actually try to be a part of mine the way I planned it…. Not you… if I sound shellfish, it is about time I started thinking for me… I need to do something for myself for once… I hope you understand … I'm sorry i botherd....
