What she left behind

She flew away from me,
Now it seems so long ago,
I miss my friend and i wonder,
Why did you go?
Why did you have to leave me alone?

She left me cuz of life,
It was just too hard for her to bare,
So she picked up a knife,
And she made her decision,
And quickly with a jolt of pain,
She made her deadly incision,

I found her on the floor,

After wondering why she was so depressed,
I had ran to her house,
Just to make sure she'd be OK,
I went into her room and began to cry,
As I saw the little bit of life she had slowly fade from her eyes,
" I'm sorry my friend...I just couldn't take it,....and...so...I...decided to simply leave it,"

Were the words she uttered to me
And then she looked into my eyes and said " I've hurt you I see,
I'll miss you dearly...just know I love you....and that now I'll see everything clearly"

She paused at this as she felt the pain,
How she lasted this long I had no idea,
I simply held her my tears now falling,
The smell of death now seemed to leer,

She spoke one last time,
" I want you to know my friend,
that this is the night my life ends,
I love you please know this and try not to cry....I....Love....You.....Good...Bye"

And with that she died in my arms,
I screamed aloud "why" and began to cry..

That was a few months ago,
But I still can't forget,
If I'd only gotten to her sooner,
I wouldn't feel this regret,

Some days I hear her voice,
Like if she was still walking beside me,
Why did she make that choice?
Why did she have to leave me?

Now I see that she was in so much pain,
If only I could've read her mind,
Then maybe she'd still remain,
..but why did she have to leave me behind?