I'm Doing somthing, you wouldn't understand

Now I have another knife in my hand,
doing something you wouldn't understand,
Sliding that peaceful blade against my smooth skin,
I feel lively within,
Not thinking, that i just made another sin,
the blood turns into a bubble, then pops,
the blood doesn't stop,
it runs down my arm, like a quiet stream,
but inside, I scream,
Thinking of all the heartache, and I never learn,
for you, I strongly yearn,
The blood drops to the floor like a single tear,
as I wish, that you would just disappear,
that way I wouldn't have to deal with this agonizing pain,
thinking this, my blood drains,
then i come back to reality,
thats when I notice what i just did,
then i hide it, with my sleeve,
and yet, I feel relieved,
thank you, for your poison in my heart,
you just tore my heart apart.