I bleed

I cut, i bleed
to ease the pain
just to fall in love
with the blood
the blood i just
have to bleed, i want
to love, i want to live
but i strive to feel the pain,
the pain of the never dulling knife
the one that cut my
arm, to cut my leg, to cut my heart,
to cut my life the one i
wish to live.
the knife that loves my pain
the laughs that scorn
that haunt my dreams,
the dreams of the life i wish
to live, but the hateful
laughs make me cry,
the cry that makes me want
to die in side and then i pull out the knife
it's a never ending
cycle
and never ending goal
i don't want to die but
what chose do i have
the knife haunts me, and
soon the drugs, and then the
pills and then the gun the one to end the life....I WANT TO LIVE.

Amber