Why?

Tears
I've shed so often
Hurt
I've felt so often
Pain
has taken control over me
Hatred
Is all I can ever see

Why do I let them take advantage of me?
Why do I let them hurt me?
Why do I let these people often affect me?
Why do I forgive when I shouldn't?
Why do I cry when I shouldn't?
Why do I look back when I shouldn't?

Tears
make me so weak
Hurt
has always defeated me
Pain
makes me feel numb
Hatred
makes me wish I didn't care
Why do I bother if nothing will ever work out?
Why do I try and make them care?

Why?