Fade away

I really just want him to fade away,
off in his own serenity....
and never settle once more
in my mind
and take my breath
and make my heart feel this way,
I want him to feel my pain,
that i go through,
every night and day,
I wish he was mine,
The tears flow,
like a raging fall,
waiting to float me away,
from HIM,
I want HIM,
but i know ill never get HIM....
I really just want him to fade away
off in his own serenity.