You left me

I edited it for profanity, I'm sure you can see where it is..

It kills me to see
You talking to other guys
It murders me to hear
You pulling all those lies

You pretend you're over us
You laugh with no pain
While I sit deep
Slowly as the pain gains

It warms me to see
That you still smile at me
But freezes me deep
To know you're still my key

I try to talk to my friends
To get over you faster
But I know deep down
They think I'm a big bas****

Girl it'll be a long time
Before I realize your gone
Babe it'll be a dang long time
Before i stop listening to our song

Dang i cant believe you left
You went with no sign
Dang i can't believe you left
Your no longer mine

Desires I've never had
Overcome me inside
Things between right and wrong
But now they've all collide

I still await your calls
Sitting in the dark
I've waited so freakin long
That it's gonna leave a mark

This pain deep inside
Is too much for me to take
Dang i wish you would come
And sit with me by the lake

But all you now do
Is pretend you don't see
Me sitting alone in pain
You'd rather be with them then me

I put the knife up to my throat
Ready to pull
I'm nothing at all
But a long lost soul

My suicide depression
I now write in this
Death shall be my road
A life of total bliss

I'll walk this path
To finally be alone
I'll leave me behind
In withered bones

Now i say goodbye once and all
I hope you read this letter
And hear of my painful path
And it should make you feel better

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