I remember the night you killed me

*I don't know what this is about but you don't have to read it all, I think it's kind of long... Take care, Elle x*

I remember the night you killed me,
But yet you're not to blame,
I knew you were crazy,
I knew you were insane.
You were my boyfriend,
The one I loved to touch,
The one I smiled at whenever I saw,
The one I loved so much.
I remember our first date,
I was 12 years old,
We thought we were so grown up,
And I tried to act mature and bold.
Around then you started doubting life,
Saying it made you blue,
And I was really worried,
So I felt upset too.
We talked about everything,
And by the 6th date we were just close friends,
We talked about how we hated it all,
And discussed a lot of different ends.
Then you randomly kissed me,
Then I saw the light,
I felt all warm and happy,
It saved me from the world's cold bite.
Then you said you loved me,
I didn't know what to say,
I thought I wasn't ready,
But I didn't want to chuck it all away.
I love you I echoed,
You smiled from somewhere deep,
You held me close against you,
You told me to go to sleep.
I didn't know what you were on about,
It was the middle of the day,
But all you talked about was memories,
Of when we were young and used to play.
I asked what you meant by this,
But you still went on,
About how the first time you'd seen me,
The light of hope began to shone.
I'd pushed you away by now,
And was staring at you with that knife,
"It's time to take our chance my love,
Together we will run from this life."
I stared at you in confusion,
I just couldn't see,
How now at the age of 15,
Death was how it was supposed to be.
"Please put the knife down,
Together we'll be strong,
You can be happy with me,
We've made it for this long."
And then you came and stabbed me,
And with one gasp I fell into your chest,
You held me close once again,
"Hush now lay down to rest."
I tried to call out loud,
But the sound that came out was none,
I tried to move away,
But I stayed still, Didn't even attempt to run.
I felt you lean over me,
Then your lips touch my skin,
I felt that touch sinking,
Sinking deep within.
Then I finally flew up high,
My spirit soar away,
I watched my lifeless body for a while,
As you prayed I saw a perfect day.
Then with tears you took the knife,
And with a motion that made me shiver,
Stabbed yourself deep in the heart,
And with silent tears my heart began to quiver.
I haven't seen you since then,
That's not how it was planned to be,
I'm still scared even in this peaceful place,
I need you to complete me.
It hurts how you killed me,
And then held me and let me bleed,
But I still need my light and hope,
It's you that I still need...

©Elle
*I don't know what to say. I don't know what that was about*