Happiness...A Lie.

I knew it,
I knew I'd go back.
Should've never trusted myself,
because i ended up stabbing me in the back.
Happiness isn't my friend,
it just laughs in my face
and eventually in the end,
I fell for its fate
Why am i put through this?
given a shimmer of hope
only to be proven,
that I'm right, I'm just a joke.
Am i really that fun,
to be played around with?
but before I jump the gun, just tell me....
why would you do this?